Wahai Norheni Jamri bakal zaujahku yang baik hati,

Esok tiba masanya kita diijabkabulkan. Syukur dgn segala norma kehidupan sepanjang pertungan ini kita lalui dgn tabah dan redha. Akhirnya masa kemuncak telah pun tiba. Sy Mohd Abdillah Mohd Isa dgn penuh rendah hati dan juga khilaf terhadap awak. Sy menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun dan maaf andai sepanjang perkenalan, pertunangan kita banyak buat silap dgn awk samada sengaja atau tidak. Itulah diri sy sebenarnya. Lemah dr pelbagai sudut. Mencari sesuatu yg pasti terkadang smpai memaksa kpd awk dlm sesuatu perkara. Berang sifat yg sy terlalu susah nk kikis dlm diri ini. Sy akan belajar dan terus belajar utk memperbaiki diri. InsyaAllah.

Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,

Sungguhpun diri ini byk memperlakukan kesilapan terhadapmu. Aku sekalipun tidak akan menyakitimu. Aku berpegang sebagaimana amanah yang Allah akan berikan ini. Akan ku jaga dirimu sepenuh hati, dibelai dan dikasihi sejujurnya dari sanubari. 

Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,

Aku mengungkapkan jutaan terima kasih atas kehadiranmu. Aku bersyukur kerana berpeluang utk memilikimu Norheni. Baik budinya, cantik parasnya, indah bila melihat. Tenang jiwa. Sungguh indah hatimu terhadapku. Aku berterima kasih kerana sudi menerima diriku sebagai bakal zaujmu. 

Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,

Engkaulah sinar harapan yg Allah bakal pinjamkan bersamaku. Kerana mu akan ku gagah menempuhi onak berliku kelak. Keranamu akanku redah segala pancaroba duniawi. Dan keranamu juga akan ku pikul segala amanah yg telah Allah berikan.

Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,

Ingatlah. Walau apapun terjadi selepas majlis pernikahan ini. Kuat utk aku bermohon. Berbincanglah. Jgn diminta sesuatu yg tidak endah didgr. Jgn diduga sesuatu yg tidak elok diduga. Dan janganlah sesekali engkau beratkan dirimu utk menempuhi berseorangan. Adanya aku bersamamu adalah utk menempuh dugaan.

Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,

Alhamdulillah dgn berkat kedua ibubapa kita yg ada ini, segala ini terjadi. Didiklah diriku andai khilafku ternampak olehmu. Tegurilah aku atas segala silap salahku. Mohon dirimu sudi menegur atas segala kesilapan yg difikirkan olehmu. 

Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,

Sesungguhnya engkau adalah amanah dr Allah kepadaku. Tidak sesekali sesuatu itu tampak mudah dan senang. Berat bahuku memikul tggjwb ini. Berat lagi hatiku utk melepaskanmu.. Maka setialah bersama hingga akhir hayatku...

Nukilan : Gagak Dirimba.😘😘😘😘😘

Loveusomuch NorheniJamri. Abang sayang awak sampai mati.

Jumaat, 23/10/15.

1214 pm.


 Alhamdulillah. Everything is back to normal.

Time check, it's 0904 pm. And it's Wednesday. 8 days left until my solemnization. Hihihi. I can't say that I'm not happy right now because I do happy, and really happy. I'm blessed. Alhamdulillah, I thank Allah for everything. For the tests He gave me, for the gifts, for making me still alive today and for every single thing. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. I'm not rich. I couldn't get whatever I need. But Alhamdulillah, I'm so thankful because at least I have the best family in the world, the superb siblings, the loved ones who always there for me and yes, my closest friends. I am thankful enough because at least I got a place to sleep, I can still eat and drink, and I have a life. What else could I ever ask for? Yes, I won't lie. I wish I have this, I wish I have that, but this is it right? This is reality. Life is a cycle, or in other words, a series of events repeating themselves in a sequence ? Some things, like chances, only come one time. Some feelings are meant to be one of a kind. Sometimes we're going up, sometimes we're going down and it will always moving, it won't stop. Yeah, all it takes is patience. Just a little patience is all we need now. So never give up, never say never. Keep on praying because He's listening, always. Until the next post, take care. 


14 October 2015, Wednesday.


Dear you,

I'm sorry I constantly want to talk to you.

I'm sorry when you take long to reply my message, I get sad.
I'm sorry if I say things that might piss you off.
I'm sorry if I come off as annoying.
I'm sorry if i dont wanna talk to you as much as you wanna talk to me.
I'm sorry if I think about you too much and too often.
I'm sorry for being too childish.
I'm sorry for hurting you over and over again.
I'm sorry for the broken promise that i've done.
I'm sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you dont really care.
I'm sorry that I get mad easily and I curse a lot.
I'm sorry if I never listen to your stories.
I'm sorry if I ask too many things from you.
I'm sorry if I am not good enough for you.
I'm sorry if I come off as being clingy and such.
I'm sorry for every single thing.

You are my passion. My life.

14 Oct 2015, Wednesday.

0740 pm.


Bismillah. Alhamdulillah.

Another 4 weeks to go.

I am proud of us. We’ve been through hell and back, and after all that, we are still here, together. I admit, more than once I wanted to give up on us, but you didn’t walk away. So now I want to say thanks. Thank you for always choosing to stay. You always set your pride aside when it comes to me and I am grateful for that. I know I am still learning to do that, but I know that you won’t let me go. Thank you for your endless patience. Thank you for listening to everything I have to say. Because of that, I learned to be confident of my feelings, to have faith in myself, to love myself. Thank you for a years of memories with you. Memories I will treasure forever. Thank you for being the best guy a girl could ask for. Thank you for being who you are Mohd Abdillah.

You may not realize that I appreciate everything you do, but I really do. You're my everything. The best part of my day. Your good morning text brightens my morning while your voice on the phone was my lullaby at night. Even one text from you can turn my lousy day around. You know, I loved how you never run out of things to talk about. I loved how you can think of a joke just like that to make me laugh. I loved how every time I get mad, you know just what to do so I won’t get mad at you anymore. I loved how you talk about the future, our future.

I thought was amazing, because I could never be any of them. And that’s why I admire you so much Mohd Abdillah bin Mohd Isa. Because you are what I could never manage to be. You are my better half. You’re completely different from me, yet I feel we’re the same. With you, I feel as though I am everything that I have ever wanted or tried to be. With you, I feel completely and understood. With you, I know what it feels like to really be a part of something amazing, something special.

Finally, I just want to keep reminding you that I love you too much, Abang. And that I won’t ever get tired of saying it. Every relationship has their own definition of forever. Some lasts for a month, a year, 2 years, then its over. For us, I know it’s far from that. Our forever’s not done yet. I don’t think it will ever be. Just, stay. Stay strong, stay true, stay close to only me. Stay. Another four weeks to go and will officially husband and wife. InsyaAllah.

Stay. Pray. May Allah ease our way.

Your fiance,



1st June 2015 and its Monday.

Alhamdulillah. Syukur. 

Safely arrived home after 2 hours (i guess) listening to what abang "bebel-ing". Haha and what say me, its true. Our future is on our hand. How we gonna go through it, all depends on us, ourself. We (act im the one who should) have to be tough enough to handle it when it comes to family planning and our future family (counting for 4 month to go plus minus). In Shaa Allah, abang and me we will together build our family to the better level.

4 months left 'till our wedding day. 4 months left 'till i switch my pangkat from bujang to a wife (im so excited, no hmm yess haaaa scared too). May Allah ease everything for us. Aamiin.

And abang, iloveyousomuch to the moon and back. For the rest of my life, i'll be with you, stay by your side honest and true. I still keep trying to give all the best that i can to make you happy with me. And i wont surrender.

We'll go through all this together, ups and down we will always gonna stick together.

Already 240 am in the morning. So good night guys. See you in the next post. 



I choose to stay strong even I have every right to break down . What's life if not for the hardships kan ? I'll get through this . Just like I get through everything….by myself . I know I'll be okay because Allah doesn't give me a burden I can't handle . I will pass this test . All I need is just a little patience. Allah knows best . Keep holding on Heni , you'll be just fine.


I'm learning to appreciate things I have right now rather than complaining the things I don't. Yes, it's not easy, but at least I'm trying. It's true that not everything comes along just when we want them. Things might get harder from time to time but it's okay, because this is life, this is reality and it's how life supposed to be. But I believe everything will be okay eventually because what goes up must come down. Life is like a wheel and I leave everything up to Allah. He knows each pain. He sees each tear. He understands each lonely heartache. I may know what I want but only He knows what's best for me.

Life doesn't always turn out as planned. You don't plan for a broken heart. You don't plan to be sad. You don't plan to be shattered. You don't plan to be hurt. You don't plan to be broke. You don't plan to be betrayed. But it's okay because sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul, He breaks our heart to make us whole, He allows pain so we can be stronger, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble, He allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves and sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.

Life is never cruel to us and Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear. Allah is always with us. Allah listens to every prayer. Allah knows best because Allah is the best planner. Dan ingatlah , disebalik kepahitan ada kemanisan yang tersembunyi. Just stay strong and keep holding on. Everything will be okay eventually .