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Assalammualaikum..

Wahai Norheni Jamri bakal zaujahku yang baik hati,


Esok tiba masanya kita diijabkabulkan. Syukur dgn segala norma kehidupan sepanjang pertungan ini kita lalui dgn tabah dan redha. Akhirnya masa kemuncak telah pun tiba. Sy Mohd Abdillah Mohd Isa dgn penuh rendah hati dan juga khilaf terhadap awak. Sy menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun dan maaf andai sepanjang perkenalan, pertunangan kita banyak buat silap dgn awk samada sengaja atau tidak. Itulah diri sy sebenarnya. Lemah dr pelbagai sudut. Mencari sesuatu yg pasti terkadang smpai memaksa kpd awk dlm sesuatu perkara. Berang sifat yg sy terlalu susah nk kikis dlm diri ini. Sy akan belajar dan terus belajar utk memperbaiki diri. InsyaAllah.


Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,


Sungguhpun diri ini byk memperlakukan kesilapan terhadapmu. Aku sekalipun tidak akan menyakitimu. Aku berpegang sebagaimana amanah yang Allah akan berikan ini. Akan ku jaga dirimu sepenuh hati, dibelai dan dikasihi sejujurnya dari sanubari. 


Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,


Aku mengungkapkan jutaan terima kasih atas kehadiranmu. Aku bersyukur kerana berpeluang utk memilikimu Norheni. Baik budinya, cantik parasnya, indah bila melihat. Tenang jiwa. Sungguh indah hatimu terhadapku. Aku berterima kasih kerana sudi menerima diriku sebagai bakal zaujmu. 


Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,


Engkaulah sinar harapan yg Allah bakal pinjamkan bersamaku. Kerana mu akan ku gagah menempuhi onak berliku kelak. Keranamu akanku redah segala pancaroba duniawi. Dan keranamu juga akan ku pikul segala amanah yg telah Allah berikan.


Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,


Ingatlah. Walau apapun terjadi selepas majlis pernikahan ini. Kuat utk aku bermohon. Berbincanglah. Jgn diminta sesuatu yg tidak endah didgr. Jgn diduga sesuatu yg tidak elok diduga. Dan janganlah sesekali engkau beratkan dirimu utk menempuhi berseorangan. Adanya aku bersamamu adalah utk menempuh dugaan.


Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,


Alhamdulillah dgn berkat kedua ibubapa kita yg ada ini, segala ini terjadi. Didiklah diriku andai khilafku ternampak olehmu. Tegurilah aku atas segala silap salahku. Mohon dirimu sudi menegur atas segala kesilapan yg difikirkan olehmu. 


Wahai bakal zaujahku Norheni Jamri,


Sesungguhnya engkau adalah amanah dr Allah kepadaku. Tidak sesekali sesuatu itu tampak mudah dan senang. Berat bahuku memikul tggjwb ini. Berat lagi hatiku utk melepaskanmu.. Maka setialah bersama hingga akhir hayatku...


Nukilan : Gagak Dirimba.😘😘😘😘😘

Loveusomuch NorheniJamri. Abang sayang awak sampai mati.

Jumaat, 23/10/15.

1214 pm.

PATIENCE

 Alhamdulillah. Everything is back to normal.

Time check, it's 0904 pm. And it's Wednesday. 8 days left until my solemnization. Hihihi. I can't say that I'm not happy right now because I do happy, and really happy. I'm blessed. Alhamdulillah, I thank Allah for everything. For the tests He gave me, for the gifts, for making me still alive today and for every single thing. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. I'm not rich. I couldn't get whatever I need. But Alhamdulillah, I'm so thankful because at least I have the best family in the world, the superb siblings, the loved ones who always there for me and yes, my closest friends. I am thankful enough because at least I got a place to sleep, I can still eat and drink, and I have a life. What else could I ever ask for? Yes, I won't lie. I wish I have this, I wish I have that, but this is it right? This is reality. Life is a cycle, or in other words, a series of events repeating themselves in a sequence ? Some things, like chances, only come one time. Some feelings are meant to be one of a kind. Sometimes we're going up, sometimes we're going down and it will always moving, it won't stop. Yeah, all it takes is patience. Just a little patience is all we need now. So never give up, never say never. Keep on praying because He's listening, always. Until the next post, take care. 


Heni.

14 October 2015, Wednesday.

YOU

Dear you,

I'm sorry I constantly want to talk to you.

I'm sorry when you take long to reply my message, I get sad.
I'm sorry if I say things that might piss you off.
I'm sorry if I come off as annoying.
I'm sorry if i dont wanna talk to you as much as you wanna talk to me.
I'm sorry if I think about you too much and too often.
I'm sorry for being too childish.
I'm sorry for hurting you over and over again.
I'm sorry for the broken promise that i've done.
I'm sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you dont really care.
I'm sorry that I get mad easily and I curse a lot.
I'm sorry if I never listen to your stories.
I'm sorry if I ask too many things from you.
I'm sorry if I am not good enough for you.
I'm sorry if I come off as being clingy and such.
I'm sorry for every single thing.

You are my passion. My life.


14 Oct 2015, Wednesday.

0740 pm.